（一）
你若不壓橄欖成渣，牠就不能成油；
你若不投葡萄入醡，牠就不能變成酒；
你若不煉哪噠成膏，牠就不流芬芳；
主，我這人是否也要受你許可的創傷？
（二）
你是否要鼓我心絃，發出你的音樂？
是否要使音樂甘甜，須有你愛來苦虐？
是否當我下倒之時，纔能識"愛"的心？
我是不怕任何損失，若你讓我來相親。
（三）
主，我慚愧，因我感覺總是保留自己，
雖我也曾受你雕削，我卻感覺受強逼！
主，你能否照你喜樂，沒有顧忌去行，
不顧我的感覺如何，只是要求你歡欣？
（四）
如果你我所有苦樂，不能完全相同，
要你喜樂，需我負軛，我就願意多苦痛；
主，我全心要你所要，不惜任何代價；
你若喜悅，並得榮耀，我背任何十字架。
（五）
我要讚美，再要讚美，讚美何等甘甜；
雖我邊讚美邊流淚，甘甜比前更加添；
能有甚麼比你更好？比你喜悅可寶？
主，我只有一個禱告：你能加增，我減少。
（副）
每次的打擊，都是真利益，
如果你收去的東西，你以自己來代替。
今天凌晨二點上帝把我叫醒，給了我這首詩歌，記得以前媽媽很愛唱，常常提醒我要為主受苦，服事上帝沒有不用付代價的，昨天聽完MRI的報告，我獨自在病房流下了眼淚，過去三年來我是這麼的努力，雖然常常發病，但我也學習如何與疾病共處，不管是飲食方面，藥物治療都完全配合，當穩定期時就可以到處為主唱歌，發作了就進醫院維修保養一下，而我也習慣了這樣的生活，週遭的人常常擔心工作給我的壓力太大，我也學習調整自己的心態，因為能站在台上為主傳福音就是神給我最大的呼召！
沈澱了一個晚上，我還是選擇安靜在神的面前，不抱怨、不生氣，不問為什麼？不大聲向神喊叫袮要怎麼救我、醫治我，專心等候上帝的旨意成就在這破碎的生命中，小腸纖維化造成的狹窄，並沒有藥物可以恢復，氣球擴張術也只是暫時撐一下，如果到完全阻塞時，外科切除手術則避免不了！克隆氏症是一種自體免疫攻擊的疾病，就算開刀也沒法治癒，還是會復發在其他部位，我向神禱告給我面對試煉的氣和信心，每天有足夠的恩典來熬過這些苦難！
God woke me up at 2:00 this morning. Gave me this song. I remember my mom use to singing this song. And often remind me that we have to suffer for God as His children. You need to pay the price as you serve the Lord. After the MRI report yesterday… I was crying in the room alone. I've been trying so hard in the passed 3 years. Even though this disease is up and down always. But I try to live with it. No matter on the diet or medication. I've done my best. When I'm stable I travel and singing for God. And confined to the hospital when needed. And I'm use to it already. Lots of friends around me are kind of worry that I'm too stressful at work. So I learn to adjust it. Because singing for God is the biggest calling to me and it never changed.
After last night.. I decided to be still in God. I don't want to be panic, angry or complaining… Don't ask why? Don't shout to God for healing. And waiting for His will to be done in my life. There is no medicine for the small intestine narrowing problem. The balloon extension surgery just for temporary. If the intestine obstruct. Then the surgical will be the only way. Since the crohn's disease is one of the immune system self-defense disease. It can't be cured. Even after the surgical it will still recrudescence. I pray to God for giving me faith and courage to face all these difficulties. His grace is sufficient for me!